Lost In The Storm

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This tumblr is just mine. I want to use it to join kandi communities when I can start making it but it's just mine really. It might not always be kandi related.

I'm a 30 year old girl from England that has slight learning disabilites that make me younger than I am in my head. So mentally I'm around 12 - 15. Feel free to send me questions and notes and I'll do my best to answer them.

I like kandi, bright colours, glowy things, music, animals, Discworld, Doctor Who and WoW.

 
 
Mar 02 2014

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Oct 26 2013

a-man-n-progress:

shart-nado:

Think Anorexia is funny? Sorry. I am a survivor and find NOTHING cute about this.

Wanna dress up like an Anorexic? All it takes is:

  • 4 years of hospitalization 
  • A nasogastric feeding-tube because you’ve starved yourself so much that your body doesn’t recognize food as a good thing and tries to attack itself.
  • Re-Feeding Syndrome, which can kill you. 
  • Emotional struggles for years. 
  • A father crying and pleading on his knees begging for you to get help
  • A mother who cries every time she sees you because you look and SMELL like death.
  • Holidays missed, birthdays crying in a hospital.
  • Almost every major organ in your body failing.
  • A shower chair - because you can’t stand in the shower because you’re too weak and the warm water could make you pass out.
  • A wheelchair, because you are too weak to walk and it could make you go into cardiac arrest.
  • A lifetime of medications for anxiety and the health issues “Anna Rexia” caused.
  • Plenty of money for multiple ER trips due to “Anna Rexia” even in recovery.
  • And if you don’t get help like I do, or even if you do, a coffin. Because I’ve lost more friends to this eating disorder then anything I’ve ever faced.

I almost died from this. I know it’s supposed to be funny and shit and yeah I get that, but seriously. THIS IS NOT FUNNY. Anorexia is nothing to party about or laugh at. It’s real, it’s deadly, and should not be marketed as a slutty outfit.

Want to dress as “Anna Rexia”? Just go as a Vampire, or a Zombie. Because 1/3 of us are dead.

i am fucking crying

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Oct 26 2013
  • So, what are you supposed to do when you realise you're hopelessly in love with someone, but they have no idea you exist?
 
Sep 06 2013

chickenofdepression:

Yesterday, Daphne turned 4 and we threw her a little shindig.

 
Sep 06 2013
Leitmotif: A FRIENDLY PSA ABOUT SERVICE DOGS: If you see someone with a service...
 
Sep 06 2013
carloslovesyou:

Hey everybody it’s Gabe Barham. I first met Gabe last year and since then we’ve been on a couple of tours together. Each tour we’ve been on tho has been extremely busy and because of that we don’t actually chill that often. From the times we have hung out tho I’ve gathers this much information. He LOVES his girlfriend-his dog Bentley (who is adorable) - and playing drums. He also wears sunglasses all the time (at least every time I’ve seen him) which is a talent all on its own cause I can’t do that. Oh, also I got to soundcheck drums for him one day in Canada and he was so sweet. The Lord knows I know nothing about checking drums but he still entrusted me with doing the task. I’m real happy we got to take this photo with the suicide sign and I’m hoping we tour together soon again. I need some Gabe in my life.

carloslovesyou:

Hey everybody it’s Gabe Barham. I first met Gabe last year and since then we’ve been on a couple of tours together. Each tour we’ve been on tho has been extremely busy and because of that we don’t actually chill that often. From the times we have hung out tho I’ve gathers this much information. He LOVES his girlfriend-his dog Bentley (who is adorable) - and playing drums. He also wears sunglasses all the time (at least every time I’ve seen him) which is a talent all on its own cause I can’t do that. Oh, also I got to soundcheck drums for him one day in Canada and he was so sweet. The Lord knows I know nothing about checking drums but he still entrusted me with doing the task. I’m real happy we got to take this photo with the suicide sign and I’m hoping we tour together soon again. I need some Gabe in my life.

 
Sep 06 2013

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Sep 06 2013
stocking-fiend:

If you’ve got a second to spare, you could save my life by reading this and sharing my story.
For my entire life, I’ve been mentally and physically abused by my Grandfather who is my dad through adoption. My grandma / mom left him when I was young because he was abusing her. He’s thrown scissors at me when I was younger and done awful things to me I don’t even want to say.
When I told my Step mom and him about my sexual abuse that happened in high school they called me a liar. He’s even made fun of me for my depression and anxiety as well as my cutting. When I went to grab a knife to take to the kitchen he dropped it on purpose and laughed saying I’d be used to it if it had cut me. He makes fun of me for being fat when he’s over 400lbs. I have tried to kill myself FOUR times this MONTH because of how he treats me.
HE WON’T EVEN ACCEPT THE FACT I’M TRANS AND GAY. He found my binder and threw it away and my step mom threw away my sports bras.
I have a place to go but without the funds and therapy, I can’t leave my home. 
I don’t want to be mentally abused anymore. I want to get help for my anxiety and depression and I want to stop cutting. Please extend a hand to help.
What can you do to help me? I’m taking donations in exchange for drawing pictures. You can donate by paypal at Theprinceisawake@live.com or you can donate with a debit/credit card here http://www.gofundme.com/getaxelout
Even if you can’t donate please spread the word. You could save my life.

stocking-fiend:

If you’ve got a second to spare, you could save my life by reading this and sharing my story.


For my entire life, I’ve been mentally and physically abused by my Grandfather who is my dad through adoption. My grandma / mom left him when I was young because he was abusing her. He’s thrown scissors at me when I was younger and done awful things to me I don’t even want to say.


When I told my Step mom and him about my sexual abuse that happened in high school they called me a liar. He’s even made fun of me for my depression and anxiety as well as my cutting. When I went to grab a knife to take to the kitchen he dropped it on purpose and laughed saying I’d be used to it if it had cut me. He makes fun of me for being fat when he’s over 400lbs. I have tried to kill myself FOUR times this MONTH because of how he treats me.

HE WON’T EVEN ACCEPT THE FACT I’M TRANS AND GAY. He found my binder and threw it away and my step mom threw away my sports bras.

I have a place to go but without the funds and therapy, I can’t leave my home. 

I don’t want to be mentally abused anymore. I want to get help for my anxiety and depression and I want to stop cutting. Please extend a hand to help.


What can you do to help me? I’m taking donations in exchange for drawing pictures. You can donate by paypal at Theprinceisawake@live.com or you can donate with a debit/credit card here http://www.gofundme.com/getaxelout

Even if you can’t donate please spread the word. You could save my life.

(Source: glitcheex)

 
Aug 04 2013

unicorn-meat-is-too-mainstream:

Magical Miniature Worlds By Matthew Albanese

Matthew Albanese creates small-scale meticulously detailed models of outdoor scenes and landscapes using everyday, simple, mundane materials and transform them into an image through the lens of his camera making them look hyper-realistic.

 
Aug 04 2013
121-1:

RUSSIA’S president, Vladimir V. Putin, has declared war on homosexuals. So far, the world has mostly been silent.
On July 3, Mr. Putin signed a law banning the adoption of Russian-born children not only to gay couples but also to any couple or single parent living in any country where marriage equality exists in any form.
A few days earlier, just six months before Russia hosts the 2014 Winter Games, Mr. Putin signed a lawallowing police officers to arrest tourists and foreign nationals they suspect of being homosexual, lesbian or “pro-gay” and detain them for up to 14 days. Contrary to what the International Olympic Committee says, the law could mean that any Olympic athlete, trainer, reporter, family member or fan who is gay — or suspected of being gay, or just accused of being gay — can go to jail.
Earlier in June, Mr. Putin signed yet another antigay bill, classifying “homosexual propaganda” as pornography. The law is broad and vague, so that any teacher who tells students that homosexuality is not evil, any parents who tell their child that homosexuality is normal, or anyone who makes pro-gay statements deemed accessible to someone underage is now subject to arrest and fines. Even a judge, lawyer or lawmaker cannot publicly argue for tolerance without the threat of punishment.
Finally, it is rumored that Mr. Putin is about to sign an edict that would remove children from their own families if the parents are either gay or lesbian or suspected of being gay or lesbian. The police would have the authority to remove children from adoptive homes as well as from their own biological parents.
Not surprisingly, some gay and lesbian families are already beginning to plan their escapes from Russia.
Why is Mr. Putin so determined to criminalize homosexuality? He has defended his actions by saying that the Russian birthrate is diminishing and that Russian families as a whole are in danger of decline. That may be. But if that is truly his concern, he should be embracing gay and lesbian couples who, in my world, are breeding like proverbial bunnies. These days I rarely meet a gay couple who aren’t raising children.
And if Mr. Putin thinks he is protecting heterosexual marriage by denying us the same unions, he hasn’t kept up with the research. Studies from San Diego State University compared homosexual civil unions and heterosexual marriages in Vermont and found that the same-sex relationships demonstrate higher levels of satisfaction, sexual fulfillment and happiness. (Vermont legalized same-sex marriages in 2009, after the study was completed.)
Mr. Putin also says that his adoption ban was enacted to protect children from pedophiles. Once again the research does not support the homophobic rhetoric. About 90 percent of pedophiles are heterosexual men.
Mr. Putin’s true motives lie elsewhere. Historically this kind of scapegoating is used by politicians to solidify their bases and draw attention away from their failing policies, and no doubt this is what’s happening in Russia. Counting on the natural backlash against the success of marriage equality around the world and recruiting support from conservative religious organizations, Mr. Putin has sallied forth into this battle, figuring that the only opposition he will face will come from the left, his favorite boogeyman.
Mr. Putin’s campaign against lesbian, gay and bisexual people is one of distraction, a strategy of demonizing a minority for political gain taken straight from the Nazi playbook. Can we allow this war against human rights to go unanswered? Although Mr. Putin may think he can control his creation, history proves he cannot: his condemnations are permission to commit violence against gays and lesbians. In May a young gay man was murdered in the city of Volgograd. He was beaten, his body violated with beer bottles, his clothing set on fire, his head crushed with a rock. This is most likely just the beginning.
Nevertheless, the rest of the world remains almost completely ignorant of Mr. Putin’s agenda. His adoption restrictions have received some attention, but it has been largely limited to people involved in international adoptions.
This must change. With Russia about to hold the Winter Games in Sochi, the country is open to pressure. American and world leaders must speak out against Mr. Putin’s attacks and the violence they foster. The Olympic Committee must demand the retraction of these laws under threat of boycott.
In 1936 the world attended the Olympics in Germany. Few participants said a word about Hitler’s campaign against the Jews. Supporters of that decision point proudly to the triumph of Jesse Owens, while I point with dread to the Holocaust and world war. There is a price for tolerating intolerance.

121-1:

RUSSIA’S president, Vladimir V. Putin, has declared war on homosexuals. So far, the world has mostly been silent.

On July 3, Mr. Putin signed a law banning the adoption of Russian-born children not only to gay couples but also to any couple or single parent living in any country where marriage equality exists in any form.

A few days earlier, just six months before Russia hosts the 2014 Winter Games, Mr. Putin signed a lawallowing police officers to arrest tourists and foreign nationals they suspect of being homosexual, lesbian or “pro-gay” and detain them for up to 14 days. Contrary to what the International Olympic Committee says, the law could mean that any Olympic athlete, trainer, reporter, family member or fan who is gay — or suspected of being gay, or just accused of being gay — can go to jail.

Earlier in June, Mr. Putin signed yet another antigay bill, classifying “homosexual propaganda” as pornography. The law is broad and vague, so that any teacher who tells students that homosexuality is not evil, any parents who tell their child that homosexuality is normal, or anyone who makes pro-gay statements deemed accessible to someone underage is now subject to arrest and fines. Even a judge, lawyer or lawmaker cannot publicly argue for tolerance without the threat of punishment.

Finally, it is rumored that Mr. Putin is about to sign an edict that would remove children from their own families if the parents are either gay or lesbian or suspected of being gay or lesbian. The police would have the authority to remove children from adoptive homes as well as from their own biological parents.

Not surprisingly, some gay and lesbian families are already beginning to plan their escapes from Russia.

Why is Mr. Putin so determined to criminalize homosexuality? He has defended his actions by saying that the Russian birthrate is diminishing and that Russian families as a whole are in danger of decline. That may be. But if that is truly his concern, he should be embracing gay and lesbian couples who, in my world, are breeding like proverbial bunnies. These days I rarely meet a gay couple who aren’t raising children.

And if Mr. Putin thinks he is protecting heterosexual marriage by denying us the same unions, he hasn’t kept up with the research. Studies from San Diego State University compared homosexual civil unions and heterosexual marriages in Vermont and found that the same-sex relationships demonstrate higher levels of satisfaction, sexual fulfillment and happiness. (Vermont legalized same-sex marriages in 2009, after the study was completed.)

Mr. Putin also says that his adoption ban was enacted to protect children from pedophiles. Once again the research does not support the homophobic rhetoric. About 90 percent of pedophiles are heterosexual men.

Mr. Putin’s true motives lie elsewhere. Historically this kind of scapegoating is used by politicians to solidify their bases and draw attention away from their failing policies, and no doubt this is what’s happening in Russia. Counting on the natural backlash against the success of marriage equality around the world and recruiting support from conservative religious organizations, Mr. Putin has sallied forth into this battle, figuring that the only opposition he will face will come from the left, his favorite boogeyman.

Mr. Putin’s campaign against lesbian, gay and bisexual people is one of distraction, a strategy of demonizing a minority for political gain taken straight from the Nazi playbook. Can we allow this war against human rights to go unanswered? Although Mr. Putin may think he can control his creation, history proves he cannot: his condemnations are permission to commit violence against gays and lesbians. In May a young gay man was murdered in the city of Volgograd. He was beaten, his body violated with beer bottles, his clothing set on fire, his head crushed with a rock. This is most likely just the beginning.

Nevertheless, the rest of the world remains almost completely ignorant of Mr. Putin’s agenda. His adoption restrictions have received some attention, but it has been largely limited to people involved in international adoptions.

This must change. With Russia about to hold the Winter Games in Sochi, the country is open to pressure. American and world leaders must speak out against Mr. Putin’s attacks and the violence they foster. The Olympic Committee must demand the retraction of these laws under threat of boycott.

In 1936 the world attended the Olympics in Germany. Few participants said a word about Hitler’s campaign against the Jews. Supporters of that decision point proudly to the triumph of Jesse Owens, while I point with dread to the Holocaust and world war. There is a price for tolerating intolerance.